Fingernails, Buddha, and God's Love

Today I went to get my nails done and the man that does them is a Buddhist. While he was fixing my nails, we talked about different things. Then he asked me where I went to school. I told him about the school and the church.After I told him I asked him if he and his family would like to come to church on Sunday. He told me that he doesn't have time to and that he was raised buddhist, but he really didn't want any religion. Through that I was able to talk about the difference between a religion and a relationship. He needed to know that Jesus died for him and wanted to have a relationship with him.He asked alot of questions and I know the Lord was working in his heart. He didn't accept Christ, but the seed was planted. Pray that God will continue to work in his heart and that he and his family will come to church.

Just a few more days....

Well, it's the last week of school! I have exams until Friday and then it's time for graduation. I can't believe it's almost over. As I was thinking about this year and looking back on all of the good times, I began to see how truly valuable memories are. But one thought kept coming back to my mind over and over again....did I impact anyone for Him? I heard a quote a long time ago that said, "Impressions won't last, but Impacts never go away." Over the years I have had many worthless moments but I pray that during my years in highschool, I didn't just leave an impression, but an impact. One of the ways I feel most loved by God is when He wants to use me inspite of who I am and what I've done. So many times people have this idea that God only uses those who are older and mature, but God wants to use us where we are. God uses believers of all ages and so many times we limit God. He wants to do great things in and through us, we just have to be willing. What could be more satisfying than knowing God and being used of Him?

It's Official!!

Well, everyone it's official! I've been accepted to Bob Jones University! I have been praying about this for a long time and God has opened all the doors and given my parents and I complete peace. I'm so excited and thankful that God led me to this college. During those times where I was so confused about where to go, God taught me many lessons. First of all, that my life is not about me, but about Him, and secondly He taught me to seek HIM, not a place. I'm so thankful for God's guidance and sovereignty. I still don't have all the answers, but I don't need them. God is in control and He holds me in His hands. May I never take my eyes off of Jesus.

More Love

Last night I spent the night with a friend and we watched "Dreamer", if you have not seen that movie, you need to! We try to have "movie night" every now and then which always includes chocolate! After our movies were over, her brother started watching a show about a man who got his foot eaten by some kind of sea animal....it was terrible. Needless to say, I dreamed my foot was being chewed off, thanks alot Sam!

Anyway, this is the reason for my title......On the way home this morning, I was listening to a song about a man's prayer. He described how he had sought earthly joy, but he soon realized that only God gives what is best. All he prayed for was more love for Christ. This made me think of all the times I pray, yet I don't stop to ask for more love for Christ. Each new day should bring forth an intense desire and longing to love my Jesus even more. The One Who saved me and gave me hope, should be given all my love and all my heart. God never changes, He's always the same. But my love for Him shouldn't stay the same.

Lord, may I give You my heart each day with the intent of loving You more each day.

"A Martyr's Prayer"

Lord, I'm not worthy to suffer for You,
But it's something I will willingly do.
My hands and feet are bound in chains,
But in my heart there's no restrain.
These men may beat me and tell me to deny,
But my love for You will give me a reply,
You are my God, I want only You,
For in this world no one else will do.
My purpose in life is to glorify Your name,
And tell the world I am not ashamed.
Their endless hatred may rip me apart,
But they can never take the joy in my heart.
It's in this moment I'm able to see,
That Your amazing grace is enough for me.
If it requires my life I will lay it down,
For it's at Your feet I will place the crown.

No Strength...Alot of Pride

This past week has been the most stressful week I have ever had. I had make up tests and assignments to get done and I had play practice three hours a night. I tried to do these things all in my own strength because I thought I was capable of handeling everything on my own. Needless to say, I fell flat on my face! It was a very low point, but I'm thankful. I saw myself, again, as I really am and Knowing that He forgives me and carries me is a humbling thought. I had a friend remind me this week that God is always there and that I won't walk these "uncertain roads" alone. His strength is perfect in weakness.

Thank You, Lord, for the low points in life. It's through these times I see your greatness and my unworthiness. Empty me of myself.